So as many of you can tell, I took a little time off from writing. I took time off from a lot of things, and I have yet to figure out if it is a good thing or a bad thing. But you know what? That's okay, its okay to be unsure sometimes, and its taken me a while to figure that out. As you can probably tell by the title of this post, there have been a lot of changes in my life. Some big, and some small, some good some bad but that's just life. You have to experience all of these beautiful and sometimes sad changes in order to fully understand it. To update you, I recently made a very long move back to the state I grew up in, and let me tell ya, that wasn't an easy decision. Moving back home meant moving back in with my parents, which sounds great and all (ya know, homemade meals, no rent, that kind of stuff). But in my case, this isn't my ideal situation. I have been on my own for the last 4 years, yes my parents helped with rent, but aside from that I was living wild and free (if by wild you mean staying up past 10), so moving home, back to chores and rules, wasn't my first option. But now that I'm here, I'm glad I'm home. I wish I wasn't with my parents, but it gives me time to figure out where I'm going and what I'm doing. I just secured myself a job, not a career just yet, just a job as a gymnastics coach (do I ever do anything other than gymnastics??). This is where another bit of change comes in... I HATE CHANGE. Just in case you didn't know that already. Walking into a new place is like walking into a class on the first day of school, will I know anyone? Will I have anyone to sit with? Will I make friends? These are all constant thoughts running through my head. My coworkers seem to like me, but my bosses seem skeptical and that the worst feeling in the world. Feeling as if you're constantly being watched. Now, I know I've done this a billion times before, I mean the only jobs I've ever had have been as coaches, it's just nervewracking being in a new place. But this is just something that life will always throw at me, change, new bosses, new rules, and new people. It's something that I have to get used to. 

Now, when I mentioned the move I forgot to mention a huge part of why I didn't want to move. My friends. Moving home meant moving back to no one, I don't talk to anyone from here anymore. So another part of this change was moving back home knowing that I had no one to move back to. Now, I'm not saying this so that you throw me a pity party. I am telling you this because I think it's important to understand that starting over is scary, very scary. But, it gives you a chance to make a new life for yourself, one where you don't have to hide who you are (I like girls btw), and one where you can just be 110% yourself. I say this like I moved home and was like WOW NEW ME, but that's not exactly what happened. I'm still finding my way here, I'm still trying to figure out what I'm doing and where life is planning to take me but that's just the fun of it. To conclude this long and lengthy blog post, I just want to say one thing.... 

"Life is like a rollercoaster. It has its ups and downs, but it's your choice to scream or enjoy the ride"

till next time, 

xoxo